Journey of a Fat Man

Well, guess who is back?

Thanks to a good friend of mine, Kevin, I am back and at it again.  Where have I been and what have I been doing you may ask?  Well, even if you did not ask, I will tell you anyway.

The best thing I can say is that I got “Lifed,” to quote another friend of mine.  I hit a serious wall.  Physical, emotional, spiritual.  That is the best way I can describe it.  I went through a bitter divorce, which in turn drove me into depression, with no will power or ambition to move forward.  I was also jumping from job to job with no single focus.  What should have been one of the happiest times in my life (finishing a half marathon), turned out to be the pinnacle of one of the worst.

Anyway…now that that is out of the way, another observation, which should have been self evident, is that this new lifestyle Journey that I embarked on is like walking the razor’s edge.  You are constantly tested and put through the gauntlet.  The moment you stray away from the path, it turns into a slippery slope.  One day you say, oh, that one pizza won’t hurt.  Or, we will hit the McDonald’s just this once.  The next thing you know you are sliding down what you thought was a slope, but turned out to be a cliff face.  Praying for some branch to cling on to, to stop the decent.  Where out of nowhere a hand reaches out and grabs you by the wrist.

I mentioned before that a friend of mine, by the name of Kevin, helped to bring me back to the straight and narrow.  He kept on me and on me to get back on track.  For a little back story, less than a year ago he had a heart attack.  He was on this Journey with me and constantly mentioned to me how much I inspired him.  Then, about the time I dropped off the face of the earth, was about the same time he had his heart attack.  He has been trying and trying to get his focus and health back and asked for a little help.  Life changing events like this kind of put things into perspective.  I thought I was focused and had ambition.  I still look to my daughter for inspiration, but…..

Sorry if this sounds like I am babbling.  It has been a while since I have put my thoughts down in black and white.  I am back in this for the long haul.  Started counting my calories again yesterday and purchased a gym membership today.  I let myself get so out of shape.  I plan on starting walking for the first week, then hit the running plan again….hard!  I am guessing in these last nine months that I have not done anything, I probably have gained 25 – 30 pounds.  We will see on Monday.  The weigh-ins begin anew.